Absolute Zero

Hey Liz,

Sorry for the radio silence. I’ve been “digital and social detoxing”.

I’ve deactivated my Facebook account after breaking up with Calvin, not like I am worried about being stalked as he actually blocked me and got all his friends to delete me as a friend.   

Guess I just wanted to reset a little bit, strip everything back and focus on myself and what I want.

It’s weird to not have him around anymore if I was to be honest. He has been the only constant ever since I moved here, we’ve been together for 6 years and he was there with me through the lowest points of my life.

I guess I grew tired of the constant arguing and the distrust, what’s left in a relationship when there is no trust? I pulled the trigger in the end, yet it doesn’t mean I am not devastated.

I am much better now given a few months have passed. I actually went travelling, went on a road trip with some friends in the US, drove from New Orleans to Miami, then made a quick stop by at New York before heading back. I still hate NY, that hasn’t changed, it’s loud, it’s dirty, people are rude, and I never felt safe. Yet, I met someone interesting, I met this cute Asian American guy working for start-up, a typical Yappie type, he is about to start his MBA course in London Business School this autumn. Think we will keep in touch and see how it goes once he is here.

Work as been same old, I started later in the industry than others so playing the catch-up game, trying to make up all the differences in the shortest amount of time possible, I’m sure you know what I mean. That guilt of changing career paths and pursuing the ideal state.

Sorry for typing this all in English, I’m working from my work laptop at the moment and I’ve not sorted out the language system yet.

How are you doing? Any boys caught your interest yet?

Write to me x

Charlotte